im a bad person who thinks bad thoughts like ‘ew what is that girl wearing’ and then remember that im supposed to be positive about all things and then think ‘no she can wear what she wants, fuck what other people say damn girl u look fabulous’ and im just a teeny bit hypocritical tbh
I was always taught by my mother, That the first thought that goes through your mind is what you have been conditioned to think. What you think next defines who you are.
I regularly look back at a time in my life where I felt complete content. I would be lying if I said I haven’t searched for that peace again. I would be lying if I said that the answers as to why I was so pleased with my life don’t scare me now. They do. I’m at an incredible cross-roads. However unlike a time in my life where my path was wide open and I was absolutely terrified, this time around I feel excited. To not jinx the situation, life seems to be progressing along quite nicely.
Yet I still look back on that time in my life and miss it, and wonder if certain things were different, if I could find that contentment again.